Monday, November 8, 2010
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Nicholas Starlie ♥
Nicholas...
I miss you so much.... :'(
So, lately I've been browsing pictures in my notebook..
Lots of moments and memories, I should tell..
And talking bout memories, one of many unforgettable memories I've had was the memories when I was teaching back then.. (again) ;)
Why Nicholas is so special and adorable to me..?
hmm.. let's see..
That was my first day teaching..
I was so nervous..
I had no experience in teaching at all back then..
And that time, they let me handle the position of assistant, since I'm still new. :)
When I entered the class..
It was so quiet...
The children are staring at me like "Who is this??? I don't know her.. I think she's scary"
fufufu.. :D
And I was sitting in front.. Beside my form-teacher..
And that's when Nicholas smiled at me..
He winked, and laughed at me..
And that moment.. I was really happyyyyyy....
I smiled back at him.. and suddenly he got shocked, because my form-teacher yelled at him,"Hey.. what's wrong with your eyes, Nico?? Caper (cari perhatian)??"
And that moment the whole class laughed at him because his reaction was so funny..
anw, they were 5.. :)
Ah, Nico...
Sometimes I met him..
with her sisters..
and from all students i've ever taught.. He's the one that is able to recognize me well.. way better than anyone.. :)
His smile broke all the nervous nerves inside of me..
Thank you, Nico..
You made my teaching life fun and wonderful.. :)
I miss you.. and I love you, Nico.. ♥ :)
I miss you so much.... :'(
So, lately I've been browsing pictures in my notebook..
Lots of moments and memories, I should tell..
And talking bout memories, one of many unforgettable memories I've had was the memories when I was teaching back then.. (again) ;)
Why Nicholas is so special and adorable to me..?
hmm.. let's see..
That was my first day teaching..
I was so nervous..
I had no experience in teaching at all back then..
And that time, they let me handle the position of assistant, since I'm still new. :)
When I entered the class..
It was so quiet...
The children are staring at me like "Who is this??? I don't know her.. I think she's scary"
fufufu.. :D
And I was sitting in front.. Beside my form-teacher..
And that's when Nicholas smiled at me..
He winked, and laughed at me..
And that moment.. I was really happyyyyyy....
I smiled back at him.. and suddenly he got shocked, because my form-teacher yelled at him,"Hey.. what's wrong with your eyes, Nico?? Caper (cari perhatian)??"
And that moment the whole class laughed at him because his reaction was so funny..
anw, they were 5.. :)
Ah, Nico...
Sometimes I met him..
with her sisters..
and from all students i've ever taught.. He's the one that is able to recognize me well.. way better than anyone.. :)
His smile broke all the nervous nerves inside of me..
Thank you, Nico..
You made my teaching life fun and wonderful.. :)
I miss you.. and I love you, Nico.. ♥ :)
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
What Hurts The Most
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let 'em out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while even though
Goin' on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm okay
But that's not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away
And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do
It's hard to deal with the pain of losin' you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder gettin' up, gettin' dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And havin' so much to say
(Much to say)
And watchin' you walk away
And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do, oh
Oh yeah
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
(To say)
And watchin' you walk away
And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do
Not seein' that lovin' you
That's what I was trying to do, ooo
Note : Dear someone, do you still remember, it was February, this is the song that you loved so much. and you introduce this song to me. and since the moment i heard it, i've been loving this song so much. besides, this song really suits my condition now. I have so many things to tell you, but it's too late, you've walked away from me. this unspoken truth hurts so bad. i miss you. :'(
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let 'em out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while even though
Goin' on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm okay
But that's not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away
And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do
It's hard to deal with the pain of losin' you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder gettin' up, gettin' dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And havin' so much to say
(Much to say)
And watchin' you walk away
And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do, oh
Oh yeah
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
(To say)
And watchin' you walk away
And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do
Not seein' that lovin' you
That's what I was trying to do, ooo
Note : Dear someone, do you still remember, it was February, this is the song that you loved so much. and you introduce this song to me. and since the moment i heard it, i've been loving this song so much. besides, this song really suits my condition now. I have so many things to tell you, but it's too late, you've walked away from me. this unspoken truth hurts so bad. i miss you. :'(
November ♥
wow.
it's November now.
in a blink of eye, it'll be December and soon it's 2011.
wow, that's so damn fast.
well, beginning of November isn't my favorite, I should tell.
many things have happened.
truth be told i am really disappointed and broken.
i should say that it's been a hard time.
really really hard time.
i wish i could rise again.
i wish i could find the spirit to move on and be okay.
i wish i could keep all those memories away and look forward.
i wish i could tell you sth but i can't. not anymore. it's too late.
and. even though it's hard. i truly wish all the best for you.
stay happy, because i love it when you smile.
and, i'm gonna miss you.
it's not like we're being separated by distance.
it's just. i'm gonna miss the past 'you'. moments with 'you'. the one who always make me smile.
i just need some time alone right now.
to calm my mind.
to throw away this feeling, so one day i can be back to the way i used to be.
the one who always smile for you and that time, it won't be a fake smile.
the tears i've shed, no matter how much, still haven't totally reduce the pain i feel here deep down inside.
just like what ppl always said, "let the time heals"
yea, i guess, i have to agree with that one.
it's hard for me. but i don't want to burden you with my pain.
i hope i can do it well.
so, i guess it's goodbye for now.
nobody knows what the future brings, anw.
so, i'm just hoping whatever comes up in the future, it'll be the best for me. for you. for us.
i never thought it'll ended up this way actually. i didn't have a clue at all.
but life's life.
nothing's predictable.
few seconds ago it was so beautiful and wonderful, and the next second you found yourself crying out loud.
i don't know what i'm going to do or how i'm gonna be okay.
but i have to.
i have ppl who loves me and whom i love supporting me.
thank you so much my family's always been there for me.
thank you so much my besties. i don't know how miserable i would be without you guys.
Dear God, give me strength.
I really need tons of strength right now.
hmm. enough with the mellow part.
well, November's still a long way to go (is it?)
so, i believe that better days are coming for me, and i'm ready to face it. AMEN!! :) *knock on sth wood 3 times* --> I'll always remember this knocking thingy you taught me.
P.S. : i'm so happy to know you. i'm so grateful for all those beautiful memories we've shared together. i'm gonna miss you.so much. :')
it's November now.
in a blink of eye, it'll be December and soon it's 2011.
wow, that's so damn fast.
well, beginning of November isn't my favorite, I should tell.
many things have happened.
truth be told i am really disappointed and broken.
i should say that it's been a hard time.
really really hard time.
i wish i could rise again.
i wish i could find the spirit to move on and be okay.
i wish i could keep all those memories away and look forward.
i wish i could tell you sth but i can't. not anymore. it's too late.
and. even though it's hard. i truly wish all the best for you.
stay happy, because i love it when you smile.
and, i'm gonna miss you.
it's not like we're being separated by distance.
it's just. i'm gonna miss the past 'you'. moments with 'you'. the one who always make me smile.
i just need some time alone right now.
to calm my mind.
to throw away this feeling, so one day i can be back to the way i used to be.
the one who always smile for you and that time, it won't be a fake smile.
the tears i've shed, no matter how much, still haven't totally reduce the pain i feel here deep down inside.
just like what ppl always said, "let the time heals"
yea, i guess, i have to agree with that one.
it's hard for me. but i don't want to burden you with my pain.
i hope i can do it well.
so, i guess it's goodbye for now.
nobody knows what the future brings, anw.
so, i'm just hoping whatever comes up in the future, it'll be the best for me. for you. for us.
i never thought it'll ended up this way actually. i didn't have a clue at all.
but life's life.
nothing's predictable.
few seconds ago it was so beautiful and wonderful, and the next second you found yourself crying out loud.
i don't know what i'm going to do or how i'm gonna be okay.
but i have to.
i have ppl who loves me and whom i love supporting me.
thank you so much my family's always been there for me.
thank you so much my besties. i don't know how miserable i would be without you guys.
Dear God, give me strength.
I really need tons of strength right now.
hmm. enough with the mellow part.
well, November's still a long way to go (is it?)
so, i believe that better days are coming for me, and i'm ready to face it. AMEN!! :) *knock on sth wood 3 times* --> I'll always remember this knocking thingy you taught me.
P.S. : i'm so happy to know you. i'm so grateful for all those beautiful memories we've shared together. i'm gonna miss you.so much. :')
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